30 Days of Truth

Hey everyone! I considered giving an update on how things have been with me recently until I came across this 30 Days of Truth on one of my fav. blog writer's page Hope Dies Last. I think it will be way more interesting to write on something like this than to ramble about how "i'm still single, blah blah" or "how much my life sucks blah blah". I hope the rest of you all will join me on this quest. The full list that I got from Hope's blog is here.

Day One's topic is something you hate about yourself. I'm not sure who came up with the list but I find it interesting that this is the first thing on here. I dunno if it's because it's pretty easy for us to pick out our flaws or because we revel in having "self bashing parties". But whatever it is here goes:

Something I hate about myself

- I hate that I don't believe in myself more. It is so easy for me to believe that family, friends or a random stranger can do whatever they put their minds too but for myself I don't have that kind of faith or confidence.

- I hate that I don't recognize my own self worth. On some level I realise that I am great and amazing but a huge part of me believes that is bull. Consequently, I find it hard to believe that certain things like finding a great guy will happen to me (honestly, how did i find a way to link this topic to being single I don't know, it wasn't intentional! Swear).

- Another thing I hate about myself is that I think I am some sort of "fixer upper" that constantly needs to bludgeoned to death with self improvement efforts. I mean I am all for improving one's self but there comes a time where we need to accept who we are and realise that we aren't as broken as we believe and in fact we are happy, healthy and whole as we are. When self improvement becomes obsessive (i.e. always sprinting to the self help section upon entering a Barnes and Noble) something needs to give.

- I hate that I worry so much about being single and alone forever. So annoying.

- I hate that I overeat to compensate for my feelings of lack and loneliness.

- I hate that I can probably write more about what I hate about myself than what I love about myself.

So I'm ending here because I really don't want to go too deep into this topic. But as I said this list is interesting. Hopefully I will write on it everyday. It may be difficult as I am travelling in the next two weeks (sooo excited!). But I will try my best to stick with this. As I said before I hope you guys will join me and I look forward to reading your lists!