Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Still Not My Turn...yet
I got a job, YAY!!! I actually got my job at the end of March but of course I was too lazy to blog about it. So far its been okay...i'm neither over the top happy about it nor disappointed by it. It is what it is. I am just so grateful for it because it's what I wanted and hey its a job. Funny though, when I heard that I got the job I was ecstatic during the days leading up to it. I felt like nothing could top this feeling, not even a man. And even the first couple of weeks, my mind was so focused on work that I didn't even think about having a bf or the fact that I dont have one. I was good. However, since the last two weekends I have that lonely feeling. You know the one you get when you realise its Friday night and your alone once again. Or you hear a friend talking about her boyfriend and you feel that pang hit the pit of your stomach. You know what I'm talking about. I'm sick of saying I wish I had this and that in life when I know I have plenty to be grateful for. But at times like these I can't help but wish I had someone. And I can't help but wonder why it hasn't happen for me yet but its happen for so many other people multiple times over. I just want it to be my turn already...the wait is becoming unbearable.
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congrats on the job! I'm still waiting to hear about a job i interviewed for last week, I have a feeling I'm not going to get it....only because I really really want it.
congrats on the job. at least something is going right and will take some pressure off you. i too hope that it will be your turn soon...
thanks miss pepper and jo! its so good to finally have a job, i've been waiting too long for this. and miss pepper you never know when it will happen for you. if you really want this job it could very well mean it's because it was meant for you, so think positive about it : ) . and jo im with you with hoping it would be my turn soon, its been awhile.
Congrats to you and good luck! I think everyone has that pit sometimes, even the couples.
Congrats on the job :)
I hate when that lonely feeling creeps up on you. I sometimes feel guilty when I get sad about feeling so alone because I know my life really isn't that bad and that things could be so much worse. Unfortunately, telling myself that doesn't always make the loneliness go away. Ah well, hopefully all of us will have our turn soon enough.
thanks for the congratulations you guys :) .
neverhadabf -its true that everyone has the pits sometimes, sometimes its easy to forget that and think that you're the only one with problems.
fairy godmother - i truly hope we'll all have our turn soon! but in the meantime at least we know we're not alone in how we feel :p
I dont know if this is a personal question or not, but im going to ask you it anyway because i'm curious. Why is it that you had never had a bf? I'm 16 years old and i have never had a bf. I have friends that are all in relationships and often call to talk about their bf's and i go through the exact same feelings that you go through.
Hey Debbie,
It's kind of hard to answer your question because its a question I ask myself alot and I am still not sure why. But if I could nail it down I would have to say confidence, or my lack thereof has held me back in finding and keeping a bf. Throughout high school having a boyfriend was a elusive fantasy for me, I never thought it could happen for me because at the time I blamed my weight for keeping guys away.
In college I thought my chance would come, and although I did start romantic flings with guys nothing came out of it because either the guy was wrong for me or I was too insecure to have a relationship.
Now I'm working I just go from work to home literally everyday so I haven't really had the opportunity to meet anybody. But even as I say all of this I know people who meet their significant others doing mundane everyday things so really it depends on whether its your time or not. Hence the name of my blog :p, hopefully I answered your question somewhat.
thank you for answering my question! now i kinda have one of my own. I havent had a bf yet and i actually expect my college years to turn up a bit in the bf department. Should i go into college without those expectations? Just to keep from being disappointed in the end?
Debbie - I'm not really an expert in those things. But generally I don't believe in telling people to expect the worst. I have found that those people who believe who genuinely believe and expect the best for themselves usually get what they want than those who are constantly negative. But I will also say that things don't necessarily happen exactly when we went them to. You might get a bf tomorrow for all you know, or the day after you graduate from college. Its not something you can really plan the exact date and time for. Whenever it does happen for you though hopefully its the right time. In the meantime though prepare yourself for a relationship. Work on your communication skills, your confidence, make sure you are showering your self with self love (as corny as it sounds). So when your Mr. Right drops by you are ready to accept him and sustain a great relationship. I know I answered more than you asked but I hope it helped!
Great you already have a job and your journey begins. . .wish you luck:0
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